Friday, May 13, 2011

Mind Over Matter

I'm full of ideas.  Really I am.  I mean, I have 6 blogs.  That's a lot of blogs.  And I have ideas all the time.  Some ideas are good and some are bad but all of them have one thing in common.  They stay in my head.  I pretty much never do anything about them.  I'll write them down or discuss them with people in my life or research the possibilities but that is the extent of them.  This leaves me frustrated and annoyed with my life.

Didn't people say all of our lives, "follow your dreams"?  Well, what happens if you have several?  What are you suppose to do when you could see your life going a million different ways?  It just ends up being this big blob of dreams and hopes without focus.

Often I ponder what I could do with my life.  I know several other people do the same thing.  I've had many discussions with my family and friends about this.  I'm sure it's a struggle for a lot of people.  Everyone is searching for something.  Of course, we can rest in the fact that God has a plan for us and will direct us in what we should do and where we should go.  I'm sure it includes our careers.  He gave us each gifts, but sometimes I wonder if we need to make the choice whether to use those gifts for ministry or for career or for hobby or for all three?

And, really, I can't even pinpoint what my gift actually is.  What is that one thing I'm brilliant at?  I'd venture to say it's nothing.  I'm not brilliant at any one thing.  I'm just sort of okay at a few different things.  I sure am glad that my husband is really good at one thing- being a designer.  He will most likely always be a designer and I find comfort in that.  But, what about me?  What is the one thing I should be doing the rest of my life?  I want to do something.  I long to do one thing well.

This post is definitely left open ended.  No resolve or resolution.  Just a bunch of ideas.



3 comments:

  1. Sometimes I have so many ideas I lay awake at night obsessing about them, or I can't sleep because I'm afraid that when I wake up I'll have forgotten that one brilliant idea.

    The bottom line, I think, is to do what blesses others and glorifies God. If that's having a job where you show up faithfully on time and are willing to share Jesus with your coworkers, or you write stories that make a positive impact, or you bake cookies for your neighbor, it's all the same.

    We should form a club specifically for people who are okay at a lot of things but not really excellent at any one thing.

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  2. I agree with you that we should live our lives to always glorify God so really I suppose it shouldn't matter what we are doing as long as we are bring Him glory. But, I guess I should have dwindled down my thoughts a little more.
    I suppose I should clarify that I was more or less talking about careers specifically. I have lots of ideas for businesses to start and career paths I want to take. I know a lot of girls in the Christian world whose calling is to be a housewife and/or mother which is such a blessing. I am not one of those girls. For some reason, God just didn't give me a heart and desire for that. Maybe it will change, but I sort of hope it won't. I've always grown up with my mom being a housewife and stay-at-home mom. I once told her (and I feel so terrible for doing this now) when I was in high school, "Mom, why don't you have a job? You should get a job". And she did. But her heart was at home and her calling was at home to raise her kids in a Godly way which I respect immensely.
    Some women are so awesome at being moms and that IS their calling and the gift that God has given them.
    I feel like I'm talking in circles but all that to say: I want to do a job well and I want it to be glorifying to God and above all, I want it to be the job He has for me. Now, I just have to figure out what talents He's given me and recognize those.

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  3. Ps. I know God gave me these desires, dreams, and drive for a reason... I just can't figure out what it is. Haha

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